because i realised that i embouchure i had for the past two years was wrong. no wonder my tone sounds like fucking crap.

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EDMW
http://forums.hardwarezone.com.sg/showthread.php?t=2253450

i'll fail the auditions with this shit reed.
i also prepared myself to fail the e maths test.

you see. i'm a changed woman. i will start studying like crap and stop my wee-school-is-over-lets-go-tm-go-home-co

mputer-sleep-get-pimples mood. i even brought a bagpack to put my biology and e maths and chemistry inside. i also brought all the homework home. i also started using the school handbook which i gave up since primary 1. kidding. i did that to make myself look studious only cause people say i keep never do homework one.

I LEFT ALL MY HOMEWORK IN SCHOOL WOOHOOO!

Porridge and fish cake for joey! the fish cake is seriously like a cake.


hahaha happy birthday girl.



contribution to my weight.


just had my reunion dinner. freaking full now.

happy deepavali everybody.

i'm mentally prepared for the scolding now.

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEY!
super funny la. the first gathering after so damn long and we ate porridge with super big fish cakes.

the previous sectionals was freaking fun when we celebrated Paul's birthday. All the "IT'S A BOY!" utensils and the bib. i think that phrase will burn into my head for life.

WOOHOOO IM GOING TO BREAK MY RECORD FOR NOT WEARING THE DRESS SINCE GOD (not kyne) KNOWS WHEN!

i seen a man cry, i seen a man shout out
afraid of losing the woman he loves.

heho. today was freaking funny. and i got $100 richer. wooo hooooo.

happy birthday paul.

happy birthday joey (3 day advance)

happy birthday kyne (half month advance)

happy birthday nataline (one month advance)

happy birthday arnold (one half month advance)

happy birthday beeyan (many many months later)

(to be exact, the money my mummy lent to me)

I SPENT FREAKING $9.60 TO DEVELOP SOME PICTURES OF LOW QUALITY AND WHICH WASN'T CUT PROPERLY! :@!

life is really different without friends.


candiful fanciful candy fedora hat.

let's see his reaction when he see the love letter we wrote with many many love for him.

i won't work towards my dream half heartedly anymore.
i won't give half my attention.
i'll give all.
i'll do my very best with this second chance.
even if i fail, it's a success as i know i did my best.
thanks for those but it's not working.
thanks for telling me that i changed.

i realised it too but those actions just came naturally. i'll control.
control.
i want to be like back then when i was quiet and don't talk back.
when life was carefree and happy.
when i don't have to worry about being late.
when it isn't stressing me to set a good example for others.
when talking to strangers i'm cautious.
when i frown at others because they're rude.
is it too late?

i talk back.
i'm rude.
i speak my mind unconciously even if they hurt or irritate people.
i respect in my mind but my body does otherwise.
i act loud so i can click with people easily.
am i actually a loner just inside.
flashing fake smiles at others.
i can't change back.
it's too hard.



i can't speak my true mind other all.




/edit
great. i just realised that i left my pencil case in school/ lost my pencil case/ pencil case got stolen.

come my fellow sec 1 dunmanites!

join band!

I HAVE SWEETS IN MY BAG! AND WE HAVE TUNERS! AND FUN SENIORS!


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i got damn shocked that my hand got cut by carrying chairs. why i keep getting injured after the campppppp. and why my attitude suddenly so weird now. i can't control what i say anymore.

甜蜜蜜
你笑得甜蜜蜜
好像花儿开在春风里
开在春风里
在哪里
在哪里见过你
你的笑容这样熟悉
我一时想不起

啊~~在梦里
梦里梦里见过你
甜蜜笑得多甜蜜
是你
是你
梦见的就是你
在哪里在哪里见过你
你的笑容这样熟悉
我一时想不起
啊~~在梦里

在哪里
在哪里见过你
你的笑容这样熟悉
我一时想不起

啊~~在梦里
梦里梦里见过你
甜蜜笑得多甜蜜
是你
是你
梦见的就是你
在哪里
在哪里见过你
你的笑容这样熟悉
我一时想不起
啊~~在梦里
ah~~ in my dreams

are you excited? cause i am :D

you know after the camp, i found a box of london chocoroll in my kitchen

I thought the camp was going to suck without friends but i was wrong.


the items i forced into my bag.

reached school then went up to class cause arnold was late. then i realised that my bag was huge so i removed my skirt and 2 packets of sweets and dumped them under my table. then reported at 7.30 and set off to malaysia at around 8.30.


MALAYSIA!

Then finally reached the camp site at around 2 and had our lunch. Heng we 4 people share one tent. Then we set off for our first activity!

Lake water rafting
crap i hate this like mad sia. can't swim so i faster ran upland with siewling and refused to jump into the water again. i cannot see who is who without my specs then i was like squinting my eyes to look out for everybody but gave up in the end LOL.

Indiana Jones
The best activity in this camp :D At first i thought this game was going to be damn unglam when i see the pictures of seniors playing the game. then in the end it was very much different la! then a lot of crap come out from everybody like the peace treaty then in the end can't even cross cause cross halfway someone shake the whole thing and i fell off the platform with many orhcheh and cuts on my knee.


two orh cheh on knee, two big orh cheh on sheen, one orh cheh at the inner side of my right foot, and one more at the outer side of my left foot.

Then low rope elements, dinner, night walk (quite lame actually), supper and lights out!

Second day was the day i got two tones darker, and have the spectacle marking on my face. damnit la why i choose such a thick framed specs.

skip

skip

skip

THIRD DAY!

skip

skip

... then we collected our passports and handphones (if you gave them to mr tang to keep it safe)


Near the campsite


On the bus back to Singapore

Then went to meet with JOEY NATALINE AND KYNE! arnold went somewhere else so he couldn't come with us. Super high la today. but when return home and getting pissed, thats another story. they won't let me have a first hand phone anyway.

/not referring to nataline's saiphone

take new phone for what? bring school haolian and get stolen is it. don't even know any functions of that phone still go and use. zzz. i asked for a first hand phone for so many years and didn't get one. all i have was second handed ones handed by elder siblings. then here she is with a new first hand phone that i always asked for but never got it.

did i mention that my first phone was a nokia 3310 when everyone was using coloured phones with nice ringtones? my second phone being called lousy because it doesn't have the camera function. my third phone with a broken analog/joystick, making me unable to press up and left? now my current 4 year old phone always hangs, blackout, receive corrupt messages and says that my inbox is full when its infact empty. i don't even dare to shut my phone now incase it dies. i also have to wish extra hard everytime i detach the usb cable link in case my phone dies of data malfunction again.

so what if her results are better than mine? why not you buy the phone for someone whose phone broke? why not i get a phone too?

jealous? of course i am. i cried over it too.

going on a camp from 8 jan to 10 jan.

don't miss me cause i won't miss you. probably worrying about the activities in malaysia.

suuuuuuuuuuuuupa intensive training!

tuesday wednesday thursday friday saturday! get ready to loose some weight while starving during band hohoho. MUST BE BELOW 50KG BY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

great.

i'm going to be the outcast in the camp. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
SAVE ME LEH.

is super saddening one can.


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saw this mute + deaf guy from russia at bugis there. super brave and respectable. travel on a motorcycle to tour the world even with his disability.

if only i can be as brave and determined about chasing my dreams.

DONT GO OVERWEIGHT BEEYAN

to

http://taintedtattoo.livejournal.com/

happy new year. let's shout merry christmas together when people shout gong xi fa cai during chinese new year.


haha. i'm going to dig out old pictures from my photo album and post them up later or tomorrow. school's starting tomorrow. super excited. :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

it's going to be a super wild year.

my house like gambling den sia. 4 people play mahjong. 1 person stand and watch. i sit here shade 4d paper.